a paragraph on "a very short story"( assignment for May 25)

I feel sorry for him, after I read the story.

Before we read that, we learned that the writer of this story, whose name is Ernest, committed suicide. I think for most of people, they don't really understand the feeling of committing suicide, because they never think about such things. I read a lot of books about psychology when I was in high school, and I can understand this feeling very well. I think for most of people who want to commit suicide, they are not optimistic about themselves, and they lose hope to God; usually, they think God is unfair to them. They think bad things happen to people who have no fault, and God doesn't even punish bad people sometimes.

In this short story, I can feel the author's attitude about life. He had several marriages which were all very unsuccessful; he wrote this story probably just want to give us reflection on marriage (at least marriage in Ernest opinion). In this story, the author used a lot of words to describe how he loved Luz. For example,
1----he took the temperatures of other patients so that Luz could rest in the bed.
2----after the armistice, he sorted the letters by the dates and read them all straight through.
3----he agreed that he would not drink, and he didn't want to see his friends or anyone in the States. Only to get a job and be married.
4----although they quarreled with each other about her not willing to come home until he can find a job; even he felt sick to say goodbye like that, they kissed good-bye. (maybe he just wanted to make her happy, and he agreed that she would return home after he found a job.)
5----he felt so sad after he knew that Luz slept with the major; he had sex with a sales girl in a taxicab.(because he was drunk and even if he drunk he still couldn't forget the pain that Luz gave him)

However, Luz acted like a prostitute. At first, when I was reading the story where the author mentioned that
Luz wanted him to find a job first, then get married, I thought it was kind of normal, but even when he was alone in the States trying to find a job in order to get married with Luz, she still cheated on him. The reason why I say she acted like a prostitute is that she slept with the major and after that she even said "theirs had only been a boy and girl affair" to him although she knew he would be hurt, she still sent that letter to him. In my opinion, the author used the word or the person 'the major' here in order to indicate that she consider wealth more important than true love. I don't like such character. Compared to other international students here, I am very poor, because I use some scholarship given by my Japanese university, but not a lot of money given by the family. I used to do a lot of part time jobs. I worked in a sushi restaurant, and a convenience store; I always want to be financially independent and I can feel the happiness; and I NEVER ever think that I should find a rich boyfriend.  Even if the boy I like is very poor but trying really hard, I think I can still like him.
However, in the story, Luz said that theirs were just a boy and girl love, I think the author intended to say because Luz thought he was not rich enough and he couldn't give her a good life, so she called it a boy and girl affair.

The reason why the author wrote 'a short after he contracted gonorrhea from a sales girl in a loop department store while riding in a taxicab through Lincoln Park' is that he (the author) thought that God is unfair; even though he did nothing wrong, he still got 'punishmen' from God, which also reflected on his sttitude about life.

We can feel that the author felt disappointed about the world by reading this story.

I like this story.