I went to a beach after class with the CAs, and I enjoyed the whole afternoon.
On the way to the beach, I took a nap on the bus while others were talking; I found myself not very talkative at that time, and all I wanted to do was just to assure myself that it was me that enjoyed today. I could hardly believe that I could also have some happy moments. Although I still had some difficult times, I felt it easier to overcome and more hopeful; remembering that although I saw some black birds at noon, today I thought they looked somewhat majestic, and had less meaning of bad luck.
When we arrived at the beach, I said, " I like the weather; it's so nice today!" I knew some people there felt a bit unusual that I looked happy today. I went close to the water, and walked into the tiny waves; everything looked so cute and nice today. There were different shapes of small stones in the sand: purple, light green, grey, and white. I felt grateful but nervous. I knew it might come a big wave, and swallow me again and everything colorful. For some reason, I wished I hadn't felt so happy.
I looked at the huge sea with a shaky smile and a promise, "I am going to be brave and face all the difficulties in a good way; Life is only once, and I have to get better."
I walked back to people sitting on the beach far away. The sand was so hot, and my feet were burning-nothing could make me feel any more alive.
Xiaoyue, thank you for writing this very image-oriented post! I am curious about the final sentence. It's not grammatically wrong, but I want to make sure I understand it as it could have more than one meaning. Were you feeling as alive as you could be at that moment the sentence describes? Or were you feeling not-alive, and nothing was able to help you?
ReplyDeleteIn any case, keep on keeping on, as they say!
Thank you for the comment. The last sentence basically means I felt alive at that time because usually I don't feel so alive.
ReplyDeleteI wanted to go to the beach on Friday but had to study for TOEIC... I will join this week!! :)
ReplyDeleteI like your expression about the ocean.
Do we have the same activity this week too? I want to go there again. I hope the weather will be nice like last week:)
ReplyDeleteIn my opinion, just try to enjoy, and don't worry, don't think too much even if life can be complicated. It's what I try to do, and as they say in America: don't worry, be happy :)
ReplyDeleteI hope to see you in another activity, just for a fun time ;)
That's great, Xiaoyue! (And your grammar was correct, too.)
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