Today-a positive thinking:)

It was a warm day; I liked the beautiful weather. I was glad that I was able to enjoy some time of the day and I think I felt happy. However, it's hard to stay relaxed for me. I appreciate every peaceful moment and feel grateful for every single smile that I could truly have.

Not too long time ago, there was almost no way I could passibly think that I could still feel some happy moments in my life; it looked like I was the girl who was going to experience all the difficult things--and none of them pleasant. I thought I had to erase the word "happiness" from my vocabulary; however, I didn't really want to. I craved happiness the way I craved chocolate; It was a fact of my life that I needed chocolate to survive.

Luckily, here, I have been doing much better than I thought. Today I wasn't feeling too bad. However, I know every happiness is only temporary and fragile--like the bubble. I wish I could be frozen at that time; I wanted to keep it a bit longer. I hate the rule of the world that there is no way for me to hold the bubble. I knew after the "best before" of the happiness expired, my nervous level would shoot up like the mercury in a thermometer that was placed in boiling water.

I went out for a walk late this afternoon. I like the smell of the air in Vancouver, and I was thinking that no matter how difficult it is, I am going to walk on. I believe that life won't say no to me unless I say no to life.